Thursday, February 14, 2008

Striving for Peace

I am aware of the need for reconciliation. When are told in Scripture to reconcile with each other. What does that mean? Does that mean saying “you’re sorry” (assuming we really meant it) and then the case is closed? I have come to realize the answer is never that clear. Reconciliation requires more effort than I think we are willing to admit. Forgiveness is not easy. As the saying goes “to forgive is to forget.” This statement is uncategorically wrong! While I admit that forgiving is in a sense moving on, the statement is wrong because “forgetting” does not always mean we have dealt with the problem. In most cases forgetting means to cover up. When we do this, we live with a virus inside of us that in time will try to destroy us. Forgiveness means coming face to face with the pain. Sometimes it is looking into the eyes of the person who has wrong you and telling them of the pain. Telling them of the betrayal, telling them of the lose of trust. It is only when we come face to face with the issue(s) will we be able to forgive. I am not saying that we have to do this with every offense. I think it becomes necessary when for instance , when you are around the person(s), your blood boils. When you look at them with contempt and frustration, it is time to talk!

Forgiveness stinks because it forces us to come face to face with the problem. In some cases we may seem as though we are being hurt all over again. For instance, to forgive a rapist is to come face to face with the lose of something pure, the theft of innocence. In an unfortunate situation such as this is Jesus’ opportunity to come and bring healing. You see when we are called to forgive, it is an opportunity to come face to face with Jesus. To look into his eyes and pour out our heart. Be it tears, shouting, anger, whatever it may be, it is the chance to hear him say “give it to me!”I do not want to give it to him, because my flesh wants to be angry. It wants justice! It wants the person(s) to experience the same pain if not more pain because of the sin infected on me. How twisted is this thought? Jesus does not give us our dues! Mercifully, he forgives! Jesus is the perfect example of forgiveness. He forgave the people who were killing him! What a thought, to look into the eyes of the offender, even during and say I forgive you! In a selfish moment, you get to experience (in some degree) what Jesus did! You get to experience another type of love, a love that is rarely seen in the church. A love that is truly unconditional. May it be so!

Thoughts?

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Next Year

I haven't a clue what I am doing next year.
Options:
1. New Zealand (been offered a place to stay and a church to work at)
2. Masters in Counseling (which means I would have two Masters degrees)
3. Church Plant
4. London
5. Teach English in Korea or Japan
6. Spend a year at a monastery

I love New England but I can’t stand being around most of the people near me. Apparently they don’t like being around me either, so that makes two of us. Sometimes I want to snap my fingers and go back in time and never have applied to this school! I am tired of being around passionless people (Thank goodness for the Korean Students, their prayers probably keep this place from being a cesspool of Evangelical bigotry) I am tired of being around fake people. Seminary is worse than the world! Most people seem to have a chip on their shoulders. (For anyone who is Seminary, you probably can stop reading because I have probably already ticked you off) After two years in Seminary (Cemetery) my soul longs to be in a place in which I don’t hate being a part of. I hate the fact that I regret coming here. I sound so pessimistic. I was warned coming here. I have no excuse! I signed up for this.

God show yourself! Bring revival to this campus! May I be a light (God, you might want to use someone else in this respect). Seminary has been one of the most challenging times in my life. Since coming here I have started to take psychotropic medications. Not blaming Seminary for that one but just stating a fact.

I sometimes hate being an Evangelical. I hate the label. I hate the baggage with it!

Forgive the rant!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Upcoming projects

Whenever I get the time, these are two topics I want to write on

Sovereign Grace Ministries: A Critique
Given the growing popularity of this group of churches, a critique is needed. Does SGM stress grace or is it as I will argue, a legalistic grace?

Marriage: An Unrealized Divorce
Why is it that when people get married, they seem to divorce their friends and family. Why is it that as soon as you get married we shut out all those who have helped us get where we are? Furthermore, I will argue that couples who continue to involve friends and family in their marriage are more likely to stay married. I see that within the church we divided into: the married and the unmarried. I don’t think Paul would have ever made that distinction.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Do Charismatics have better sex lives?

Before you laugh, I am actually serious. To my knowledge this has not been researched. Perhaps not, but I think it could make for a great study. Comparing the sex lives of various Christians might provide valuable insight. Does our pleasure in God, our enjoyment in God and the excitement in our worship of him, continue over into the bedroom? Yes, I know this seems comical but you know there might actually be something to it. If anyone wants to take the survey let me know!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Men and Makeup

Is it ok for men to wear makeup?

I say yes! But then again I am vain :-)

Thoughts?

Friday, January 25, 2008

Books

These are two of the most influential books I have ever come across. If you want to understand what makes me tick, read them!

The Inner Voice of Love: A Journey Through Anguish to Freedom by Henri Nouwen
This is a QUICK read by will impact your life forever!

Pleasures Evermore by Sam Storms
It is about Christian Hedonism, what else do I need to say!

Fear of Love, part II

I am a Christian Hedonist. I am forever indebted to John Piper, Sam Storms for their works in which they have wonderfully proclaimed this biblical truth. What I write on this matter is based upon their work. Furthermore, I am also indebted to Kendrick Vinar for first explaining this live changing truth to me.

Christian Hedonism is a difficult concept to say the least. Its premises force you to acknowledge that God burns with passion for you. Yes, you! Even in your sinfulness, God burns with passion for you. That has been difficult for me to except. I mentally understand that God loves me but my heart is miles away. Christian Hedonism challenges my heart to know that God understands my need for passion and desire. Christian Hedonism teaches that my heart can be truly satisfied by finding satisfaction in God. I mentally assent to that fact but my heart is not convinced that God presents me with a better option than sexual sin, greed, lust, or pride. You see it is pride that keeps me from the heart of the Father. My pride says that my desires can not be satisfied in the Father, only its desires can find me satisfaction. Pride says God knows nothing about desire. At the end of the day, pride always gets me to the same spot, away from God. You think I would have learned my lesson. Think where pride has gotten me every time. It has left me heart broken, it has hurt others, it has left me empty. I love sports so the way I look at it, pride has me down 0-1,000,000,000. Pride makes me lose every time! A good coach, such as Jesus knows how to turn his team around! Pride never wins, it thinks it does, but it does not! Jesus always wins! Jesus always hits the half court shot with .4 seconds left, every time!

Think about this. Lets say you are the kid who makes a shot like that. Your parents are in the stands. Can you imagine how proud your father and mother would be! The father will probably say something to the effect of "that's MY boy!" God feels that way about me and you. He says "that is my boy," "that is my girl!" Every time he looks at us, he says that. God is so proud of us. He burns with passion for us. He is jealous for us!

Fear teaches us to be suspect of love. It says "you can't trust love." It says "be safe, keep others at bay." Jesus never called us to safety but to love and more importantly to know his love for us!

More to come!